Sinking

There have been so many days when I have sat and stared at the ‘New Post’ page, felt a flush of things I would like to let out, and ended up not being able to write anything.

However, things are rather morose and have been looking down, through the past few weeks. Highlights:

I missed yet another trip to the Taj Mahal

I have yet again, been rendered homeless

I am going to be alone on Holi

I can feel the summers coming back

I am, for the first time in my life, regretting a career decision

I am giving up on people

I have not used my camera, apart from office birthdays and training sessions

I am not losing weight, or learning how to drive

I feel completely wasted and angry all the time

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The most important thing to me just now is that I am sinking, and there’s nothing to hold on to.